Here I am sitting all alone trying to make sense of what I actually feel now. I feel a staunch in my thought process. Everything seems so blurred and absurd. My heart and mind are playing games...the game of disagreeing with each other. At one time I want to forget the past but on the other hand just want to cling on to it. What is it ???
Maybe its the miles that are separating all of us, maybe it is the friends who have started to discriminate and have broken our hearts, maybe its the lack of understanding and emotions between the two of us, maybe its just the presence that still feels like absence, maybe its just not you and me anymore, maybe its just a story that has become so cold, maybe its the tears that just flow,maybe its the hardships of life, maybe the selfish attitude, maybe the misconceptions, maybe its expecting the unexpected, maybe its accepting the change in you, me and everyone, maybe its the strangeness in this world that goes on and on, maybe its the years that are just fading, maybe its the importance to ambition forgetting the importance of relation, maybe its forgiving the unforgiven, maybe its just not me, maybe its HARD CORE REALITY!!!
I always felt that I had the power to face the reality of life and accept the changes and at one point of time I did, but somehow it seems difficult to do so in the present scenario. Never have I felt the need to ask myself questions as to what I feel but why is it that it happens now, why is it that I feel unanswerable to myself. I dont know what emotions are ruling my mind, whether its love or hate, frienship or relationship, genuinity or fakeness....
I dont know whether what Ive written has a meaning or not but all I know is that they are FEELINGS UNTOLD to me by me!!!
