With just 2 weeks more for college , Im drowning with ample number of assignments to complete . so a genuine reason for not uploading my blog until today. Not that Im jobless now but I guess blogging would make me feel a tad bit better...
Sometimes it so happens that no matter how close you are to a person, they end up showing you the realistic aspect of life , kick you on the back and say " Wake up ...Get a life!! Were you really counting on us????"
And thats when you step out of the so called Artificial World of Relationships and ask yourself WAS IT WORTH IT???
Was it worth the Pain, the Sacrifice, the Emotions, the Loyality, the Respect, the Attachment???
Thats when you question yourself cos be it wateva , REALITY BITES!!!. So,
Was I stupid when I actually stood up for them?
Was I idiotic to proffer my loyality to them?
Was I unrealistic when I meant Relationships Forever?
Was I immature to Trust them?
Was I impractical when I begged for Love?
Not that I always ask myself these questions but today circumstances and people around me force me to tread over this path and question myself and ponder over every dam phase of mine.
I forgave, I forgot, I forgave again, I forgot again But when my turn came I wasnt forgiven, and Ill soon be forgotten... Time plays games... The good time v/s the bad time..and they both struggle to lead .
At this point I feel the bad is winning, so Im waiting for the game to end and hope that the good wins because the bad is throwing challenges at a never ending speed and I've lost the capacity to keep in par with it.
I want someone to erase the past from my mind and let me begin a new era in my life...( here im inspired by Damon in Vampire Diaries ..:P)
Every phase in my life has taught me so much that now I cant seem to handle the ever ending knowledge being imparted to me by life....I want a break, I want my mind to stop working for the time being, I want a Life where the thought process is at ease.
I love to sleep ( which unfortunately I cant seem to get nowadays courtesy the work load) but thats the only good part about my life as it takes me to different worlds away from the real world...
"sigh" Today I sit here with a feeling that feels difficult to describe, maybe its not worth it...
Until the next blog
Adios
{P.S-To all my relatives who think they can be the guiding souls in my life, No you all cant, so please stop having me as the centre of discussion in your so called society gossip..
All posts on my blog do not have to necessarily be My Life Story. They are fictitious most of the times.
Thankyou...:)}
