Ever felt like you are gasping for air even when there is so much around? Ever felt like searching for yourself, even when you are alone? Ever felt like being messed up even when everything is fine?
Sometimes life places you at junctures
you had once upon a time wished that you could achieve but the strange part is
reaching there and being numb.
Sometimes the people who you crossed
paths, held hands and moved together become strangers on this juncture. Sometimes
you want to cry out loud but you end up giving your broadest smile.
Sometimes you are aware of how life is
about growing old, yet you secretly want to rewind time to relive the once upon
a time lost moments.
Sometimes you look at the mirror and
see physical changes but mentally you are still stuck with elements from the
past.
Sometimes it’s not about lost love but
the love lost. Sometimes it’s not about wishing to be with the person but
wishing to have ignored them.
Sometimes it’s not about feeling right
all the time, it’s about feeling wrong for a very long time.
Sometimes it’s the urge to leave your surroundings,
jump into the ocean and try to breathe, ironically
Sometimes it’s about driving on long
roads and burying yourself in a sunset and a skyline
Sometimes it’s about letting go off
people around you so that you don’t take them into the dungeon with you
Sometimes it’s about going for a movie
and jumping into a happy scene as you please.
Sometimes it’s about pausing a moment
and only moving to the next once you have fully lived it.
Sometimes it’s about rethinking and
only wishing to set things right
Sometimes it’s about earning money
only to give it away to the filthy cheap sapiens who will never look back
Sometimes it’s about getting an
appreciation call or message so that you have no doubts about yourself.
Sometimes it’s the thought of being
accepted when maybe you are just a transit in someone’s life
Sometimes it’s about switching to a
fiction life when factual seems unreal.
Sometimes it’s about constantly trying
to keep people happy when you are in a fix yourself.
She gazed at herself in the mirror. With dark circles under the eyes and a frown on her face, she had an outburst of tears after an encounter with herself.
She restlessly swayed her hand on the mirror trying to erase what she saw but alas the inexplicable change was very evident.
Such multiplicity in one individual, she was a strong headed
woman with a heart of gold, bubbly nature and a friend you would long for. She
was now battling to find her lost self.
Sometimes it’s about stepping out of a dream and slowly accepting reality because this is what it is and irrespective of how you want to mould your life, you can only transform the future. The past is a mirage and it will keep fading every time you try going back to it.
Ever felt like you are gasping for air even when there is so much around? Start breathing because sometimes it's too late, you don't give up, you only move on!
