Was it worth it?

With just 2 weeks more for college , Im drowning with ample number of assignments to complete . so a genuine reason for not uploading my blog until today. Not that Im jobless now but I guess blogging would make me feel a tad bit better...

Sometimes it so happens that no matter how close you are to a person, they end up showing you the realistic aspect of life , kick you on the back and say " Wake up ...Get a life!! Were you really counting on us????"

And thats when you step out of the so called Artificial World of Relationships and ask yourself WAS IT WORTH IT???

Was it worth the Pain, the Sacrifice, the Emotions, the Loyality, the Respect, the Attachment???

Thats when you question yourself cos be it wateva , REALITY BITES!!!. So,

Was I stupid when I actually stood up for them?

Was I idiotic to proffer my loyality to them?

Was I unrealistic when I meant Relationships Forever?

Was I immature to Trust them?

Was I impractical when I begged for Love?

Not that I always ask myself these questions but today circumstances and people around me force me to tread over this path and question myself and ponder over every dam phase of mine.

I forgave, I forgot, I forgave again, I forgot again But when my turn came I wasnt forgiven, and Ill soon be forgotten... Time plays games... The good time v/s the bad time..and they both struggle to lead .

At this point I feel the bad is winning, so Im waiting for the game to end and hope that the good wins because the bad is throwing challenges at a never ending speed and I've lost the capacity to keep in par with it.

I want someone to erase the past from my mind and let me begin a new era in my life...( here im inspired by Damon in Vampire Diaries ..:P)

Every phase in my life has taught me so much that now I cant seem to handle the ever ending knowledge being imparted to me by life....I want a break, I want my mind to stop working for the time being, I want a Life where the thought process is at ease.

I love to sleep ( which unfortunately I cant seem to get nowadays courtesy the work load) but thats the only good part about my life as it takes me to different worlds away from the real world...

"sigh" Today I sit here with a feeling that feels difficult to describe, maybe its not worth it...

Until the next blog

Adios

{P.S-To all my relatives who think they can be the guiding souls in my life, No you all cant, so please stop having me as the centre of discussion in your so called society gossip..

All posts on my blog do not have to necessarily be My Life Story. They are fictitious most of the times.

Thankyou...:)}

The Journey Unimagined

Sometimes late at night I lie awake and ponder over my journey of life so far. Well, yes here I'm a little nostalgic while writing this blog because just in a few months time I will be graduating from college and honestly I have no clue what holds next. So in times like these I cant help myself from thinking about all the pleasant & unpleasant experiences that added on to my 20 years of a life experience in totality.

When I rewind back to primary schooling, the school playground, the swimming classes, the P.E drills etc enthral me even now and I possess the urge to get back.

But in those days it was all about moving forward and getting bigger and better and gaining more freedom in all aspects.

So when I just turned 13 I thought this was it, just like the Baby sitters Club, I can live my life like them and have my own club with lots of girls and lots of gossip. But sadly it turned out to be the same, just like I was 12.

Then I looked upto being 16, Oh boy!! what a Bday!! A surprise in Burj-Al-Arab, the most talked about Hotel in Dubai ...WOW!!! I started dreaming like Mary-Kate & Ashley and how they got their new Ferrari just when they both turned 16...but alas...still the same and what made it worse was the Board Exam fever...!!!

This was it...School was killing now and the only thought that ran in my mind then was "COLLEGE..COLLEGE..COLLEGE"!!!!

So yes I turned 17 and there it was a book of options with ennumber of colleges opened with huge arms wanting to embrace me for another 3 years..but leaving everything aside I chose MAHE- Manipal Campus, Dubai. The doors opened and the choice was disastrous but yet I was left with no option but MAHE!!

As days passed by Mahe seemed like a home away from home yet the strangeness always engulfed me and my thoughts seemed to wander every now and then on different life issues..be it Friendship, Relationship or Studentship...

At one point all of them were sailing and the same boat and the next moment all of them would drown together or one would try to save another...It was a game...either a tie or a straight goodbye to one of them...

But in the 3 years every step that I took and every experience that I mistook added on to the so called learning experience of LIFE!!

And I grew so much more as an individual that now I can See the practical aspect of life and think like a mature gal who definitely knows how to deal with life as it comes. Its no more being dependant on people, being emotional for apparently all reasons...my surroundings seem more understandable now that ive started understanding it. Its no more a Fairytale where the Prince is wating for you or a land that is made up of chocolates, or a Happy Ending!!

Its a cycle where emotions, both gratifying and dispeasing are goin to surround you all the time.

Though I want to rewind back time and play all those moments I had 1ce upon a time cherished, Im also looking forward to new challenges that are lined up for me and new people who are going to be a part of every step of my life.

Until then
Adios

Dubai- My City...

March, 1990, Dubai was the destination,and since then this has been MY CITY!! I was barely 3 months old when my mom got me here, the first time she landed to Dubai she wanted to get hold of the next flight back to Delhi from where she had started her jouney but such has been the persona of this city that 20 years from then she just doesnt want to depart from this place now.

Though Delhi gave birth to me, Dubai has been my foster mother...

A deserted land, not many people around, a market far off from the city, Dubai has now got the World's tallest building, the World's largest hotel, the World's biggest mall I could go on...

This place is filled with pleasant memories...right from New Dubai nursery, Modern High School, Our Own Dubai to Mahe University, from dating till friendship,from hanging out with friends at BurJuman and the Creek to hanging out with them at Marina, from taxis to metros, is how Dubai has shown me so many beautiful phases of my life.

I could go on and on about this place ...

All I can say is that I love Dubai and its a place worth discovering...!!!!

My City, My Life

Until the next blog

Adios

The End of yet another Semester...

A bright New year Started with the End of a fun filled Semester. Of the 4 semesters I spent in college, my 5 th semester was surprisngly far more exhilirating than the previous sems.

It started with a feeling of anxiety when we were asked to choose our specialisations. We looked at each other,was it really true, all we had was 1 common class, no more sticking around, running and bunking classes together. Yes, indeed we all chose different specialisations.

I chose TV & Production.

So we started off with 10 students in the TV specialisation ( Geet, Muaz, Helly, Pooja, Ritesh, Presley, Shivani,KP,and Thomas)what was more surprising was the fact that we all studied in the same class for 2 yrs but had never interacted with one another. All we were aware of was each other's existence in class but beyond that no one knew anything about one another.

But as time passed by we ended up working on a lot of exciting projects, interacting on various issues, disagreeing, hating, liking...every emotion was experienced in just one semester with new beings.

From Morning has broken ( a corny music video) to our Final video Project we paved our way into the exciting field of TV...

Slogging our ass off, staying over at college, running to dragon Mart for props, making Ritesh lie down just to get the correct lighting ( lol) ordering KFC at odd times & everytime thanks to our production manager- Abdul, rushing to the Convention Centre for the Media exhibition,asking Geet to drop us at all times, Driving to AbuDhabi ,ending up fighting with Muaz on the RAK trip..:P, getting up at 4 to get to the Convocation ceremony for shooting, teaching Presley hindi for the Toba Tek Singh shoot, talking about haunted stories (courtesy helly, shivani) climbing up on tables ad chairs just for that one shot....it all happened in just one semester...

I had my share of fun during this entire sem and Im sure all my classmates would agree to it. Im looking forward to our last and final semester in college. Im sure it will have a lot more in store for all of us..:D:D:D

until then

Adios